Coffee with Milk

ミルクコーヒーを飲むと

When I ship a cup of coffee with milk,

NYCでの日々を思い出します。

I remember my life in NYC.

カートと呼ばれる屋台がそこらじゅうにあって

Called "Cart" that food truck located every where in NYC.

コーヒーくださいっていうと

I usually ordered a coffee.

When I order it,

砂糖とミルクは？

The staff always asking me sugar and milk.

ってきかれて、両方！って言うと

If I told them both,

絶妙なブレンドのミルクコーヒーにして渡してくれる

they surved me good blended milk coffee.

アメリカなのにあまっ！

It surprisingly not too sweet and nicely blended.

とかならなくて、ほどよい甘さのまろやかなミルクコーヒーになっていた

どこのカートでもだいたいおんなじ感じに仕上がっていた。

I could say every cart's surved coffee was almost same quality.

I liked that.

わたしのよく行くカートのマダムは、

And close to my work place's cart women was

とっても感じがよくて

very nice person.

出勤前に私も頑張ろう！って勇気づけられたのを思い出す。

She was always making me cheer up.

東京は便利、綺麗、安全

Tokyo is convenient, clean and safe.

It's really important that I really understand especially now.

でも、海外独特の、時々感じたなんか特別な

But I miss foreign country's 

ひとなつっこい人間ぽいフレンドリーさ

friendly human relationship.

あれがふと恋しくなる。

I miss a lot to be honest.

あのカートのマダムは元気にしてるかな

I hope she is doing okey.

あの時のNYCではもう無いんだと思うと

I get emotional when I thinking about 2 years ago's 

my life in NYC.

これまた胸がきゅうとなる。

でもまた行きたいなぁ。

If I get a chance, I definetly visit again.

My favorite...

みそしるがとにかく

Miso soup is my recently's favorite one

日本に帰ってきてからずっと大変お気に入り。

since I came back.

レパートリーもないんだけどさ。

I don't cook often so my cooking reparties are sucks.

そろそろもうちょっと料理をしなきゃあかんと思い

But I know it's not good.

味噌汁を煮ましたが

So today I made Miso soup with taking bit extra time.

ネギいれて、鰹節いれたら

I add chopped scallions and Bonito flakes.

最高に深い味わいに。

It was amazingly tasted flavorful.

私は多分

I think 

魚の、カツオの出汁がすきなんだと思う。

I like fish broth especially bonito broth.

明日はどんな一日なんだろうか

Now I think about what day is going to be tomorrow.

とにかく丁寧に仕事に向き合う事

My current goal is try to do my tasks 

neat.

毎日その日なベストを尽くす事

 I won't forget to try my best as well.

ここを目標としてまず1ヶ月やる。

This is very simple goal so I'll try to brush up within 1 month.

1ヶ月、3ヶ月、6ヶ月

I'll set up my goal after 3 months and 6 months.

このスパンで小さく目標たてて頑張る。

And I'll put my tasks more heavier little by little.

自分で決めたから納得いくまでとことんやる。

I wanna try which I'm satisfy.

そういった思い。

I'm think about it like that.

最近おうちに帰宅したら、Lo fi Music がすごくリラックスできる。

Recently Lo Fi Music is really healed me.

このジャンルなんだろ。

I really like it.

数年前から安定的にファンです。

I'm big fan of it.

Starting Over

全部一からなにもかもはじまりました。

Everything just start over in my life now.

仕事も変えたし

I changed my job

お引っ越しもした。

Also I moved my place.

でもなんか、

But something

心に穴があいておる。

I feel empty.

これから埋まるんだろうか。

Probablly I'll recover soon.

なんの穴なんだろうか。

I'm not sure how to fix now.

But I'll figure it out.

もぐったらわかるかな？笑

Shall I hide the empty space before fix the feeling lol?

新しい仕事は

My new job is really organized.

しっかりONとOFFができて

I can relax and enjoy my off.

当たり前のようにしっかり休憩があって

I can take very relaxing 1 hour break.

みんな親切に手を差し伸べてくれる。

Everyone is really kind and helped me a lot.

それはもう

Really 

こんな世界があったなんてびっくり。

I'm shocking the working style.

早く新しい環境になれて

I wanna get use it ASAP.

成長できたらいいな。

And hopefully I get more knowledge.

私にできること

What things can I do in my work.

なんだろうか。

If figure out it, my empty feeling will recover I guess.

とりあえず

Anyway

記録してこ。

I'll keep blogging here so I can see my improvements.

がんばるや。

I Wish my Luck.

都会の夜景は綺麗だよね。

I like city's night view.

夜のドライブとかもいいよね。

I like driving view at night.

心がやすらぐよね。

It's really relaxing.

Ramen and Summer

コロナ引きこもりの日々が続いているから

Corona vacation is keep going.

おかあさんより

My mom shipped me

配給があります。

a lot of dry stuffs and snacks.

その一つに

One of that stuffs

沢山のカップヌードル

is Nissin's cup noodle.

最近味濃いもの嫌いなときあるんだが。

Recently I'm not prefer too salty foods.

あんまり食べないんだが、

Cuz my stomach feel tired when I eat those kind of stuffs.

やっぱり急に食べたくなるよね。

But suddenly I want it.

Suddenly.

カップヌードルに私は思い出がある。

I have a Cup noodle memory.

Nissin's one only!

夏にお父さんと市民プールに行っていたの。

When I was a kid, every summer I went public swimming pool with my dad.

多分小さい頃ちょっとだけ

My dad is always busy so maybe just few years.

そしてプールから上がったら

And after we enjoyed swimming, we often stopped by a free space.

休憩室にある自販機でカップヌードル売っててね。

Some kinds of vending machine are located in that space.

Like they sell hot drinks, little bites, candies and snacks.

And one of them selling Nissin's cup noodles with hot water!!

So we can eat right away.

それを帰る前に食べるのが大好きだったの。

I remember I really liked to eat them when I stopped by that area.

スーパーで買う方が安いから、お父はたまに買ってくれなかったが、

My dad sometimes didn't like to eat it the area.

Cuz better to eat at home those kind of stuffs.

3回に1回は食べられた気がする。

But as you know I'm good a sales person.

So I negotiated him well lol.

倍率はもっと高いかも。

あれを食べるのがとてもとても楽しかった。

I really enjoying to eat it in that place.

I had to eat it the area.

夏の日差しでくたばってるけど、シャワーもして綺麗になって、

Cuz everything melting out really well.

My body is clean

塩素の匂いがからだにまとわりついてて

and smell bit pool's chlorine which is good l liked that.

でも自分が漂白されてるみたいで綺麗みたいな雰囲気。

I felt I'm really clean during that time.

そしてプールした後ってお腹すくじゃない？

In addition, usually I was starving after enjoying swimming.

色々カラカラになるじゃない？

And very dehydrate right?

しみわたるの。

Cup noodle's every tastes soaked into my body really.

あの濃い、体に悪い味が

So satisfy.

The salty soups, oily not healthy but taste good unhealthy taste.

Everything was really good combination in the hot summer afternoon.

I loved that so much.

私は普通のカップヌードルとカレーヌードル派

I like plain or curry one.

カレーヌードルの中に入ってる

I really like the two combination.

ポテトとお肉

Curry one's meats and potatoes

または、

or

プレーンのカップヌードルの中に入ってる

Original's 

お肉とエビ

meats and shrimps

のコンビがめっちゃすき。

I really like the combination

これだけ力説してるのに

Sound like I'm really really like it those two right?

Just like I had it this time.

今回食べたのトムヤムクンだから笑うわ。

How ever, this time I had Tom yum goong noodle lol.

It's kind of new guy.

でもカップヌードルみてたらそれを思い出したのさ。

But I remember while I'm waiting my noodle is ready...

はやくコロナ無くならないかな。

I hope COVID-19 gone right away.

外に出たい

I want to go out side.

じっとしてるのむいてないの。

I'm not good at staying home like now.

みんなそうだよね。

But not only me.

ちがうかな？

Everyone I guess.

がまんするね。

Hang in there.

Just Few Days

引きこもり生活はまだ片手に収まるくらい。

Only few days went throught since my company stopped business.

今日までぜーんぜんここに何か書く気になれなかった。

I couldn't be imagine that I prep this article like that.

とにかくいそがしすぎた。

Cuz just crazy busy past few months.

でも大変な事になっちゃった。

By the way, right now it's very very serious problem all over the world.

気がついたら時間ができていた。

Now I have plenty of time.

たっぷりと。

Life is crazy.

小さい頃　「本当に起きる？世界の怖い予言記録！」みたいな本を読んで。

When I was a kid.

I led a book that "the listed will happen in the future".

20○○年、世界は滅びる…

And I remember I got scared one prediction which human will be gone 20●●.

みたいな予言を誰かが予測してたのを思い出している。

I don't remember the year though.

But I popped up the thinking that I still remember.

今…あれなんじゃないか？

I think right now's situation is the prediction....

目に見えない物体にどんどん人が蝕まれてく

We can't see the virus but it really strong then human right now.

こわい。

Invisible but it kills human that makes me really scared.

NYCのニュースもいっぱい観る

I have seen a lot of articles or news about NYC.

心が痛くなる。

My heart is breaking.

知り合いが無事ですように。

I really really hope my US's friends are doing ok...

それにしても仕事ってやっぱり

By the way "Job" is always connecting 

もらえる額＝大変さ、責任の重大さ

Income= heavy, specific task or big responsivility.

な気がする

In my opinion.

Of course, it depends, maybe has bunch of irregulars.

一般的に。

But in general.

今医療関係者は本当に苦しい。

Right now, a lot of medical personnel has faced with intense situations every single day.

何にもできないけど…

I can't do anything...

でも頑張れって願うしかないよな。

あとは自分もこのあやしいウィルスに感染して

But I think most important things is...don't get this terrible virus by myself.

病院にいかないように

And won't go hospital.

I have to minimize their job as much as possible.

気をつけるしかない。

I have to stay healthy.This is my responsibility now.

ひとまずこんなに時間があるって事ないから

By the way, one more time I never get these situation since I have gotten my job.

思うがままにまた何かここにかいていこうと思う。

So I'm going to describe something here again.

やってみよう。

I'll try. Let's do that.

I don't take any picts only for my work sadly.

This is only bit better one lol.

Just keep going

I think I'm getting used it my new environment little by little.

By the way, I'm missing my used working place and speaking English occasionally.

I wanna see my used life teacher in NYC.

I like elderly people's suggestions.

Cuz they went through already same to my age.

They have experiences then me.

Why not to listen to their thinkings about their ideas

of lives?

However, right now I'm almost decide and thinking only myself.

I have to and it's tough.

I'm easy to talk everyone that's making me thinking more carefully before approach each person.

City is just very speedy...

I want to figure out more easy way to spend my life.

So hard!!!

So  I came back to Japan.

日本に戻ってきた。

But it's still struggle.

でも、やっぱりなにもかもうまくいく！わけがない。

It's so hard to melt down Japanese company's environment for me.

なんか、久しぶりすぎてびっくりしてる自分。

Yeah...I was expected but so so stressfull and I feel I'm really poor skills...

予想はしてたけど、やっぱり疲れるし、本当に自分が無力に感じる。

Well...hopefully only currently's few months.

あぁ。今だけだと信じたいよ。

I don't want to feel same feelings later.

こんな気持ちずっとなんてたえられない😢

Before I come back Japan, I noticed people have to struggle someday which is unfixable even trying their best.

日本に戻る前、努力だけでは報われない事もあるって身をもって知った。

I was so dissapointed.

But I try to see bright side.

今のこの気持ちもその１つになりませんように。

I'm Japanese but I feel like I'm not melt enough my country's culture now.

なんだか日本人なのに、不十分みたいな気持ちになるん。

I wish I'm fixing by myself and improving next new type of me...

これを克服できればステップアップできるはずや。

Come on me!

What's going on?

By the way...

My family, friends are close and foods are amazing thought lol.

でもな。

家族も友達もいて、ご飯は最高においしい笑

それがすくい。

Well...I know my character.

自分の事わかってるもん。

Hope I'll be getting used it soon.

すぐに克服してやる！

がんばる in Tokyo!